I go back to SA in two days. I don't have any certainty about my future.
I can't really write about it either, and this has been consuming me for months. I need someone I don't know, to decide that I'm an ok person, to tick yes and give me the next 3 years of my life.
I'm scared. It's stupid. I'm sorry to all my friends whose ears I've been bending. Because this is ALL I THINK ABOUT. So I have to write something, even if it's in vague terms.
On the happier side, I'm going to see my parents, my friends and my dogs. I think I still have friends. I know I still have parents. The dogs are by no means a certainty - I came home from uni once to find we were a dog down on our usual number. He died during exams. Yeah, that sucked. He was a good dog. He did stink though.
So if I'm quiet it's not because I'm lazy, well, there's another 10% in it, and that's fear of jinxing myself. I'll be hitting some tan and some G&T, wondering what went wrong with 5FM and meeting my brand new baby cousin for the very first time.
Send me good vibes xxx
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You are a good person, and you deserve the opportunity. All I can say is, if you have all your ducks i a row, you're good 2 go!
I check yes by the box that says "Natalie is a good person."
If it feels right, go for it! "It" being incredibly vague and for all I know I could be encouraging you do to something completely heinous.
Enjoy your trip and have loads of fun!
I know it's easier said than done, but just try to stay positive and have a good trip! I know from experience that it really sucks being in such a limbo state, but I'm so sure that it will all work out for you.
Just put it to the back of your mind as best you can and have an awesome trip! You deserve the break.
Statistically it's quite unlikely for the bad to happen to both of us in such a sort time, so you'll be fine.
And if this is to do with a letter you needed from me, of course you will be totally fine.